I believed it had to happen, there was a lesson to be learned; there were things that did not add up; there were things I needed to know.
In spite of all the denials, the false accusations and the blame, he left me for his reasons, I know now I was not the one that lived with shame. It’s interesting how suffering blinds you, your senses have all gone numb; you desperately wanted to believe the lies, you needed to know if things would ever be the same, would we ever live as one. His lies were so convincing, he convinced me that I was all wrong; he blamed me for being the problem, left me questioning my sanity, left me broken and in a fog. Begged time and time again, to turn his head around, wracked my brain for answers, he wasn’t willing to tell the truth, wasn’t willing to make a sound. This breakup had to happen, my heart just had to be broken; in the end he valued nothing we had, left me shattered, bruised and forever hoping. I’m beginning to come full circle, he finally was willing to explain, said he could not do it anymore, he finally admitted that it was my age. Shocked into my reality, couldn’t believe it happened to me, I tried my best to be his everything, he decided I wasn’t young enough, decided he had to be free. He’s cold and so very distance, speaks to me with no emotion or concern, never thought my age would be a factor, at my age I’m still amazed at how much I have learned. Can’t deny my heart is crushed, no one could ever understand my pain, nothing I can do about who I am, nothing I can do about my age. Said he wants to have children, said he needs to live another life, said he couldn’t stand being with me, couldn’t stand another day of me being his wife. It’s all over now, he’s moved on to pursue his dreams, nothing left but legal ramifications, of a marriage built on sand, it ended and all I can do is scream. This is how the story ends, he made promises he couldn’t keep, pick myself up and no more crying, it’s time that I get some sleep.The following two tabs change content below.
sd2013
Writing has been my passion for more than twenty years. I've started more novels than I care to remember. The art of writing is what inspires me and not so much the end results. My travel throughout the United States and other countries has inspired my creative writing style and continues to motivate me to share my adventures. I am a visionary and always believe if I can see it, I can be it! Finding this website was clear determination on my part, as I have something to offer through my writing and I am ready to pursue my dream. I currently live in Surprise, Arizona and working diligently to finish my first short story.
Latest posts by sd2013 (see all)
- “White Knuckles” – A Poem of a Lovers’ Withdrawal by Susan Dahr - October 24, 2013
- “Harvest Moon” – A Poem of Forsaken Love and Broken Hearts by Susan Dahr - October 24, 2013
- “Home” – A Poem of Powerful Lonliness Intertwined with Inspiration by Susan Dahr - October 21, 2013
- “Love My Life” – A Poem of Overcoming Struggles and Self-Actualization by Susan Dahr - October 21, 2013
- “Reality” – A Poem of Realizing Loss and Overcoming Love by Susan Dahr - October 16, 2013
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Gave him everything I had, stripped myself of all protections, only to realize in the end, there was really never any connection. He never knew who I was, never bothered to drink my blood; I put him on a pedestal, he couldn’t handle my emotional floods. He couldn’t feel my… - 55
I’m drowning in the thoughts and memories of us and what could’ve been, while he’s with her… Loving her, hugging her, touching her, and kissing her… I could be in the desert and it would rain hard on me cause of my tears… It always rains the hardest on those… - 52
Fear deters me from contacting him; afraid of the pain that comes from within. Fear of the words that may stab my heart, not knowing what to expect or even where to start. Missing the person I had grown to love, we used to be connected; we used to be…
Wow! Give us more in a book please!
Thanks Olive,
Such a nice compliment! My poems are straight from my heart and I am so happy others can relate, in spite of the hurt and pain. I will continue to post here and please continue to read and enjoy.
Personally I would like to see more writing by Susan Dahr. I live in London and have not yet come across any English writers who are so passionate and soulful about such a topic. When one experiences heartbreak this know of writing enables up to feel that we are not the only ones to experience suh heartfelt emotions. We feel that someone else is also sharing our pain. So Sue, of possible could we see some more work or yours. Thankyou
Actually, more poems by Susan are going to uploaded today. She is very good.
I love your poems, it speaks your mind and from your heart. It’s so real. Thanks for sharing.
The poem shows the reality how the people who once loved us behave when they decide to leave us. 100 reasons are not enough to love someone but a single irrelevant reason is enough for them to leave us, abandon us forever. Moreover these reasons are not enough they even put all the blame on you.
Wonderful heart touching poem. Please give us more.
Very powerful writing! Images immediately form in the mind of the reader due to the excellent prose! This is very healing for you and others in a similar situation. Thanks for sharing with the world!
Another great one and the graphics are absolutely gorgeous and really help to tell the story. It is unfortunate we have to experience pain but the results are often positive. Keep up the good work and thanks for sharing your story.
Wow So real and telling! Your wounds are deep but pushing you to another level of understanding. God bless you for sharing your pain and letting others know they are not alone.