No one to come home to, the house is cold and dark, don’t know when I’ve been this lonely, praying and hoping I can make a new start.
No need to start dinner, no interest in eating alone, it’s been months since he left me, can’t remember the last time I called this home.
The seasons are changing now, the nights are growing colder, he used to be here to hold me; he used to care until I grew older.
He left me for shallow reasons, said I brought out his worst, his interests turned elsewhere; months of planning; it was so well rehearsed.
He no longer values who I was, refuses to remember my love or support, says I am old and have nothing left to give, nothing left but to file papers in court.
It’s amazing how fast things change, can’t believe none if it was real, believed his words for ten years, realizing those words were only what I desired to hear.
This house is cold and lonely, he no longer cares if I live or die, moved on to support another, I still can’t believe it was nothing but lies.
He made excuses to be free, made selfish decisions that required bold acts, I know he doesn’t love me anymore; It’s hard to swallow the cold, hard facts.
I know I will feel better, big things for me are in store, I’ve learned that I must love myself forever, and never rely or trust those who only want more and more.
It’s time for bed, or so the clock says, time to climb the stairs to emptiness, time to toss and turn alone in my bed.
It’s dark and quiet and so very cold, I lay here remembering, there is no one to hold. Life happens anyway, it’s not waiting for me, I need to flip this script quickly and embrace the beauty of truly being free.
I will love again and this house will be a home once more, my new life is just beginning; knowing this time I will get it right; I will get it right for sure!
sd2013
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Very deep and introspective. Love it!:)
Very touching poem! I appreciate the work put into this.
Again a heart-touching poem. Feelings can be clearly felt.
Thanks for writing and please post new poems, Your poems are balm to a aching heart.
Arun Kumar
I love the poem and can relate. I to was left for a period of time and it was very lonely but my life turned around and yours will to. I can see it changes now just keep up the good work. Writing is your therapy.
It feels like she wrote this poem just for me. I cry every time I read this. It’s so true. ” I’ve learned that I must love myself forever, and never rely or trust those who only want more and more.” We will feel better and will be happy again. Thanks for sharing another great work.
“A great beginning is sometimes at the point of what you thought would be the end of everything.” – by Dodinsky
Truly heart felt and relateable. I can identify these feelings when my spouse was away for an extended time. Your words took me immediately back to those nights. I applaud your honesty and ability to expose your pain, but more importantly your vision of brighter new days ahead. God bless you on your journey! Thank you for sharing, keep them coming.
I can relate fully to this piece of writing. It is written from the heart and soul. One can vividly feel the authors emotion and the pain and anguish of feeling alone. An excellent piece of work yet again from Susan. The heartfelt emotion is empowering her to move forward and face new beginnings. Truly amazing.
I like it… I like the major, yet semi gradual, transition from despair to to realization you can still move forward in life… Very inspiring. Interesting picture too.